Another Chance
By Johanna
08/27/04

I tried to be nice,
For once.

I gave life,
A second chance.

I tried to,
Not love,

But to like,
For once.

I tried to defend,
Not to accuse,

As I nearly always do,
For once.

For once,
Nay

I always try,
Try to believe.

I'm always saying,
" I'll give nice,

A last chance"
It kills me

It makes me even more bitter
Sometimes I even wonder,

If thats even possible?
I am dying

Why can't Ibe
the heartless person

I pretend to be?
I try to be hard

But truly
I am fragile

Like glass
Easily broken

I curse myself
As my tears fall

I wish I was heartless
Unpenetrable

Strong
Cruel

Oh, how I long,
For Strength

The weak suffer
Suffering leads to perseverence

Perseverence, Character,
And Character, hope.

Hope makes one strong
Little by little

I will make my weakness,
Into my strength

Once More
I'll give "nice"

Another Chance

A/N The little bit
"Suffering leads to perseverence

Perseverence, character,
And Character, hope."
It's from the Bible, Romans 5: 3 and 4. I think I just might start reading it again. Who Knows? Maybe I'll actually believe God exists? I know there is a God, maybe even several. Perhaps the christian one is the real one.

Thought. Logic. Statement of a fact. Creativity. Writing. Death. Killing. Me. Majick. 4Ever Young. Immortal yet Mortal. Knowledge Is Power. Young death. Young Death. I will die before 30. What comes after death? A continuation of the pitiful thing they call Life? my desire complete oblivion. what is the definition of oblivion? Being unaware of everything and anything? What is death? Do you cease to exist? Or do you simply passon to another plane of existence? I idolise death. It is the only true mystery, other than life. Where did life originate?
Are we truly alive?