Random fuck.
So I moved in with my boyfriend. I'm starting tow onder if it's a mistake. I fucking suck. He used to say shit about how he pretty much prefers spending time wqith me to anything. And maybe I believe him. Maybe he believed himself. But fuck it seems like now he can stand being around me at all fuck. I need to kill something. or cut. nah. whatever. I suck. I'm gullible, at this point I wonder if he does actually love me. Is the saex all he wants? fuck I hate this. Instability insecurity, lack of knowledge. I'm fucking scared because there's no way I can go back to my parents. I need to fix this. but God. I know I can't live without him. I care too much. He says I haven't done anything. But fuck that. if he can't bear to be around me I'm obviously doing something. I need to fix it. Give him space but yeah. how? we live together. I should disapear this weekend. randomly bus around ottawa. end up fuck knows where. let him have his space. I f that does nothing I don't know what the fuck to do. Hell I don't know what to do now. But I'll try. But God. I want him back now fuck. he was so aazing before . I miss him god fuck. Ill go sleep and let him hate me god. go die or sopme such fuck. I refuse to go over spellinfg. bear wsitrh it. no one reads this.