I had a cross country race yesterday, 5 K, not much, but alot for me, my goal was to not come in last, I reached that goal. there were four people either behind me or that died... I know there were at least two other girls behind me. (there were 78 runners) Their names were Robin and Monika, they go to Bell High School. I'm pretty sure that Robin is the same girl that was right in front of me and that caused me to come in last in 2004... It would be amusing... yah.. I came in last to every single meet last year. But this time, I had a goal! And I reached it! I woke up this morning and I was so sure I wouldn't... and yah I deal with failure badly (which is bad because I am a failure)... I was even more sure when we didnt have time to walk the track, which is bad because cross country is well, cross country, in and out of forest over and down hills etc.. it can be confusing, last year, I didn't walk my first meet,and I got lost, and last... Paragraph break time.

Yah. So basically.. all morning I was in horridly anxious and kinda bad mood, and yah.. prayed muchly that I wouldn't be last.. cuz that would be a baaad thing.. life personalish things... I would blame myself so much.. I know I could've trained so much more... seriously... last practice, well the coach had to go register us get taxis all lined up ( not that THAT did much good) it wasn't at a time regularly scheduled, so only three of us showed up,and well I did three laps, not of our of our regular circuit (it's something like 1.4 k)... I cheated... ran the whole first loop second time I ran for something like an eith of it an cut it in half, and walked the remaining quarter.. well actually it was the first quarter I walked then I cut in half and ran for a quarter of the loop, I did the same for aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa... random spasme in leg............ oooow..... yes.. I did the same for our last loop. ( not a leg spasme but a quarter running and a quarter walking)

yah. hmm am I forgetting anything ah. the actual race. I was ok for longer than I thought I could ... there were too many places where people could see me... I have this thing were I don't like to show weakness... so yah.. I managed to barely walk anything... except well at the end I got the biggest cramp inexistence. I maged to run with it for a while because well I heard that thats the only thing to do.. ignore it... but then I could hardly move.. so I had to walk.. but I managed to sprint to the finish! yah.. my body wasn't really tired more in pain from the evil evil cramp... the sprint was good, Monika and Robin were catching up to me.

A bit after we went to this "Bar and Grill" that was right beside the runnig place ( we were at the arboretum which is right beside Dows lake for those of you from Ottawa), I got yummy hot soup, and our coach bought us hotchocolat.. it vas good... because it was wet and miserable.. and very very muddy and cold... yeeah... and what is worse is that another school, Mother Teresa High school's team stole our cab, then the cab driver that got sent to replace him got lost then we had to wait even longer so as to finally get into the third cab intended for us. the only one that picked us up. in resumee we plan on beating up the mother teresa team at our next meet. And we had to wait in the rain for an extra hour, it also means I got home at 5:30, had to run to my chiropractors apointment, for which I was much late, and I didn't have time to buy myself a new reed for my saxophone, which I need.