life sucks


The past few days were wonderfull. It's hard to be happier than I was. Note the past tense. You may have noticed that I cut my blog short last post well its cuz a 'friend' was on MSN and I needed him to explain an email he sent. I thought he was my friend for once I actually believed that I had a friend. well I guess I was wrong.


I tread the path of eternal darkness
I perceive small flickers of light
Hope grows in me
Yet when light is the most needed
All is pitch black

I think I love
Yet soon after
I see the truth
Love is inexistent
Hope is merely wasted energy

I am alone in this world
I should have understood
‘That’ years ago
When shall I learn?

My trust is too easily given
I shall try
And shall trust only myself
And no other

Many a time
This I have vowed
I know myself
I shall once again be fooled

Once again
My heart shall shatter
When will I learn!
I am too trusting

I prefer Hate
To love
Hate does not hurt me
But love

Has killed me many a time
Hate
I am used to it
I can bear it

But love!
I flee it like the plague!
But I lie
It was once what I desired

Note the past tense
I have been hurt
One to many times
I shall learn!

My mask
Will no longer be made of porcelain
But of the strongest metal
I will NOT allow my self to be hurt

I shall survive
Friend is merely a word
It is only Superficial
Friend does not exist.

My heart is now a puree